Exploring the human condition.

Captain Beard the other night, " Its like if Im flying in an airplane and you're flying in one behind me. I hit some rough shit and I radeo back and say go around. Its beacause Ive been through that shit and don't want you to go through it." He's an old black man probably in his 50's or 60's and he told me when he was young he used to run around all night and chase a bunch of women and now it takes him all night to get in the mood to sleep with one. He has to be my favorite person at the jail. Maybe the world.

Twilight is bullshit. All the people that go together to burn Harry Potter books should reunite and burn all the Twilight books.

So I bonds were my favorite thing in the world because I bought them at 5% which is the highest they have been in years. So today I looked and was shocked to see they are currently being sold at 0%. The interest is compounded based on cost of living and here is the fucking kicker, inflation is at -2.78%. Which means for the first time in at least 10 years our products lost worth. I wish Chase still got on LJ because he could help me understand this. But luckily my 5% interest is locked in for 30 years so I have a bit of an umbrella. I love the fact that I still have some money hidden from myself.  

I think Im getting back into my save money phase. I was checking bankrate.com to see if there are any savings account better than mine but I did'nt find any. I cant wait to move out.

I did my mile in 10:45. I think my willpower is starting to reach the limits of my body. Im getting to where I am exhausted after my mile. I also got the UFC undisputed game so my life is complete for now.

Went to the gym with Promise. Ran a mile in 12:00 because I was feeling lazy then we did legs and abs. I did crunches on a medicine ball and Ill prob throw up in the morning. Then we went to Walmart so I could buy some food. We saw Vick and Lauren and Vick messed up the mirror on the golf cart so I loled. I bought the Donnie Darko boxed set so Im stoked to watch it. Then on the way home Promise was talking about the first time we hung out and Im always amazed at the crazy little details she remembers like what we ate at chillis when we first hung out. Which apparently was some amazingly shitty dessert. Now Im listening to mates of state which are somehow so shitty that they are good. Someday Ill find a way to make sense.

Mates of State Fluke

We lied in so many words
We say that we'd take you down
To the water's edge and watch you drown
We lied in so many words

We don't need to drive
Hang us out to dry
About to bust

We don't need to drive, oh no
What you got?

We lied in so many words
I said that I'd take you down
To the water's edge and watch you drown
We lied in so many words

We don't need to drive
Hang us out to dry
About to bust
We don't need to drive
We don't need to...

Kori:
I saw you walking on the sidewalk
Your head was taller than the trees
The reconstruction had just started
And I knew we'd view it piece by piece

Jason:
I can't say, who do I believe?
Chance would have it that way
I can't say, who do I believe?
I'll follow it at the same pace

What do you think you see?

Kori:
The horses their collision courses
I know exactly what you mean
'Cause I'm obsessed with what would happen
If we'd had never changed a thing

Jason:
I can't say, who do I believe?
Chance would have it that way
I can't say, who do I believe?
I'll follow it at the same pace

I'm about to bust

I ran an 11:05 min mile. Almost threw up after. So stoked.

I did a mile in 13.15 which is way to slow. Ill be happy when I cut 3 mins off. A 10 min mile is still slow but is fast enough to make the CERT tryouts so I have 3 and a half years to reach my goal.

So I got off work today at 0600 and I have to go to training at 0900 for FCIC NCIC certification. The sad thing is I have been using FCIC NCIC for months and now I have to be certified. Its like having to get certified to wear pants after wearing them your whole life. So before I left work I got a large coffee and chugged it, and I got a large Monster to drink before I leave for the class but right now Im dead. Plus the fact that Randy wants us to turn in our application at Deer Wood today and I want to go to the gym so Im not too sure what time Ill be able to go to sleep.

Little by little my job consumes my life.

Went to a meeting at cfcc about going to a co school in June. Its gonna be around 1600 bucks but the sheriffs office will pay me back. Im gonna be working and going to school so ill be crazy busy for the rest of the year but it should be worth it.

So I have been stoked for the new found glory show, and last night I learned that Shai Hulud is playing. It will be the first tour they have done with NFG. I can only hope Chad picks up the vocals for a couple of songs. It will be amazing seeing a band I used to love in middle/high school. Almost makes me want to break out some camo shorts and an earth crisis t-shirt.

I could feel a hot one taking me down
For a moment, I could feel the force
Fainted to the point of tears
And you were holding on to make a point
What's the point?

I'm but a clean man, stable and alone man
Make it so I won't have to try
The faces always stay the same
So I face the fact that I'm just fine
I said that I'm just fine

I remember, head down,
After you had found out
Manna is a hell of a drug
And I need a little more, I think
Because enough is never quite enough
What's enough?

I took it like a grown man crying on the pavement
Hoping you would show your face
But I haven't heard a thing you've said
In at least a couple hundred days
What'd you say?

I was in the front seat, shaking it out
And I was asking if you felt alright
I never want to hear the truth
I want to hear your voice, it sounded fine
My voice, it sounded fine

I could feel my heartbeat taking me down
And for the moment, I would sleep alright
Invading with a selfish fear
To keep me up another restless night
Another restless night

The blood was dry, it was sober
The feeling of audible cracks
And I could tell it was over
From the curtains that hung from your neck

And I realized that then you were perfect
And my teeth ripping out of my head
And it looked like a painting I once knew
Back when my thoughts weren't entirely intact

To pray for what I thought were angels
Ended up being ambulances
And the Lord showed me dreams of my daughter
She was crying inside your stomach

And I felt love again

-Manchester Orchestra

You don't have to settle for me at all
I'll never be the one you want
I'll never ever be the one under your arms
and I don't have the face to turn heads
or the body that cuts loose ends (?)
I swear I need to get a hold again

I can't get to you
(I swear I've tried)
If I can't get to you
(I'll never love again)

I'm not comfortable in my own skin
I'm ashamed of being myself
I wear my shame I wear it all too well
And I don't have the words to work this out
Your reactions fill with doubt
I am shallow this is what I've found

I can't get to you
(I swear I've tried)
If I can't get to you
(I'll never love again)

I can't get to you
(I swear I've tried)
If I can't get to you
(I'll never love again)

And you leave me with no choice
But to blow this out of the water
Now you leave me with no choice

If I can't get to you
(I swear I've tried)
If I can't get to you
(I'll never love again)
If I can't get to you
(I swear I've tried)
If I can't get to you
(I'll never love again)

-NFG

We stood on the line with our glock's at low ready. Enloe was on my left, he was about 20 and your first impression of him was the biggest wigger you ever met in your life. He worked at long horn as a cook and I think he went through the academy as a fluke. Captain Volwinkle was behind us shouting his usual tirade of insults at our targets, " Fucking blue commie bastards!" And then we fire 2 magazines at 15 yards. It was just another day on the range.This day only stands out in my memory because Enloe had been shooting terribly for the past week, maybe getting half on the target. Today though, he got all his rounds center mass in a grouping the size of my fist. I turned to him, " Damn Enloe where did you learn to shoot like that." He smiled, " You just have to aim for the soul." 

fuck daylight savings

Me and Randy played 9 holes and now I am watching rightous kill. Today is pretty awesome.

I woke up at 0530 this morning. I usually wake up at 0400. I looked at the clock for a few seconds before saying fuck. I then called Sergeant Thomas and told him I was going to be late. I walked in the door at 0615. So I guess I wasnt too late but I was still pissed. Plus i didnt get a shower so I was super tired.

I have training tomorrow at one. The officers in booking invited me to lunch at 11. I guess were going to mimi's by the new mall so hopefully it will be good. Other than that fuck today.

I trained in property today for the first time. Property is just what the name implies, you take whatever the the inmate comes in with, sotre what they cant have in a box and give them back what they can have. Or if they are getting released you take their uniform back and give them back whatever they came into the jail with. It is a great post because you stay busy and there has been two people there so you have someone to talk to.

A guy/girl that used to go to shows called sparkle star got booked in for breaking in someones house. He then got bonded out a few hours later and h was shocked that i put his purse on top of his shoes.

 

" Sometimes life gives you a shit sandwich, and you just gotta eat it. And then you get the little bits stuck in your teeth, and nothing ever taste the same again."
-Officer Waters on 01062009

I have been in booking at working and so far I like it. Good thing is I have direct contact with the fuck-os and I get to see all the action. Also, if they bring in someone i know I can fuck with them. Bad thing its a paper pusher job. I need to start working more comp time once Heather Anns car is 10-4. I have a mandatory meeting today, I guess some guy from the FBI is coming to talk to us. FML.